schnickerdoodles

it's hard for me not to go a day without admiring traits and attributes about people, with some part of me wishing i could do what they do. sometimes, i wish i had the vocabulary and diction like some of my cousins do; sometimes i wish i had the artistic ability that most of my friends have; sometimes i wish i was laid back like a lot of my other friends are. it's halfway between admiration and jealousy, but i like to see it as admiration, cause part of me keeps telling myself that i too have something that other people really wish they had. i just haven't figured it out on my own.